Epic failure

So I have totally done nothing to accomplish any one item on my checklist. Okay, I've done one thing, I charted my first cycle on my trusty calendar. Other than that, I have done zilch. Well, maybe I've also brought more produce into the house, and have made a pretty good attempt at making sure it doesn't end up on the compost pile. Aside from that, nothing. I've looked into Zumba, I've contemplated jogging 3 times a week, I've even thought about playing in the adult sand volleyball league that is local. What I have not done is anything remotely physical. I have plenty of options, I just don't do it. I don't know why it is so hard for me to do the exercise I know I need in order to lose weight. I don't get it. I think it breaks down to the fact that I have some sort of dysmorphic thing when it comes to my image. I don't really see myself as large as I truly am when I look in the mirror and that is a problem. When I was thin, I thought I was fat. Also a problem. I need to get moving. I need to get moving. I NEED TO GET MOVING!